I ❤ SEPHORA

 

last day of I ❤ SEPHORA campaign.

if you caught me dancing on the bus & smiling like an idiot.

good for you hahaha.

i had fun, although it was tiring, lunch was boring chicken rice.

it was fun to work with so many other girls.

and they are all very fwenxly and naise.

WOOHOO.

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i changed my keypad to hkitty.

cheap thrill that makes me FUCKING HAPPY.

heh (:

 

last friday with tayb, headed to love drunk with his friends.

carlsberg really tastes like shit.

LOL.

i see my tummy growing bigger everyday, i feel damn sad :(

flat tummy, where did you go.....

all these late nights & drinking.

sobs.

and we had a rough week last week.

MEH.

quarreled every single day, so mentally taxing.

cos of my job, my insecurities, my everything.

i think it sucks being my bf, and it sucks being his gf too.

HAHAHA.

i wish there is no NS cos i'm needy like this.

i wish there is no nightlife cos i'm paranoid like this.

i selfishly wish his life only revolves around me and only me.

but i still want my friends, and that little bit of freedom.

yes, this is how fucked up i am.

and i realized i'm a perfectionist, i tolerate no flaws.

sigh. fuckkkkkkk

so why, why can't i have my perfect love.

why isn't love fair?

why isn't love happy happy?

oh wells, at least i'm happy today.

been happy since he came back from shitty carlsberg event.

i guess, i just start to doubt myself.

my ability to forgive & forget.

my ability to trust wholeheartedly.

my ability to love at all costs.

but i'm contented to find tay.

he gave me the attention, care, and concern i always wanted from a bf.

it felt nice, to know that someone does love you.

it felt nice, to be wanted.

so now, let me settle my own issues & sort myself out.

nonetheless, thank you for trying so hard to change and sacrifice for me.

please, don't stop.

muku b. :)