What lies beneath

 

and just when i thought i'm healed.

things broke again.

so i went out happy. 

came home happy.

looking forward for happy things to happen.

and i ended up in tears.

shouted at my mum cos she called at the wrong time.

ignored the people who texted.

made a mess of everything.

i'm just not matured enough.

not acting like a 23.

not enough experience.

perhaps my EQ is just not there.

so, give me a guideline, a template.

just let me follow instructions throughout so i won't make any mistakes.

so i won't be condemned, judged, insulted for any mistakes.

so i won't end up wallowing in self pity, i won't end up feeling depressed.

and it pretty much hurts.

too painful to carry on, too painful to let go.

just give me a panacea to all these.